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Metamorphosis

Metamorphosis

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I cried.
To what extent?
The tears I've shed turned to waterfalls.
Then I bled.
I am now a barren dry puddle.
Sand storms come and I cough them out trying to recite the same verses:
"I am fine. I will be fine"
Am I?
Will I?

Holding on to pillars of strength,
But pillars are only stone.
They too crumble back to the ground from whence they came.
The crackling is so audible now in the deafening silence.

I am cracking again,
I've been broken past weariness and exhaustion.
There is no room left for me to give in --
I have submitted unconditionally.
My ashes are molded back together with water.
Slowly, I spin back
But I am a new form.
Water trickles to where it used to be hollow.
Flowers start to bloom
Metamorphosis May 7 8 comments No favourites
So... Guess what this thing is? ;)
From the ashes, we will rise. Burn us into a new flame

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MetamorphosisI cried.
To what extent?
The tears I've shed turned to waterfalls.
Then I bled.
I am now a barren dry puddle.
Sand storms come and I cough them out trying to recite the same verses:
"I am fine. I will be fine"
Am I?
Will I?

Holding on to pillars of strength,
But pillars are only stone.
They too crumble back to the ground from whence they came.
The crackling is so audible now in the deafening silence.

I am cracking again,
I've been broken past weariness and exhaustion.
There is no room left for me to give in --
I have submitted unconditionally.
My ashes are molded back together with water.
Slowly, I spin back
But I am a new form.
Water triMetamorphosis by ~meganapostol
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HereI can write you
That I'm happy
And you wouldn't believe that I was fake
I can tell you
That I'm sorry
But you wouldn't believe me anyway

What does it matter
All the things that I say
It all meets empty laughter
And people going away

But I am here
And I am speaking
Just because you asked me too
I am here
And I am reaching
Out for you to be here too

I can pretend
That I am smiling
Just so you wouldn't feel wrong
I can lie about
Every single thing
Just to play along

What does it matter
All the things that I say
If it meets empty laughter
Cause you didn't stay

I am here
And I am speaking
Just because you asked me to
IHere by ~meganapostol
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Lessons LearnedShe is in the pictures,
Smiling her toothless grin.
What I wouldn't give
Not to care again.

It was a beautiful and innocent time;
She'd never believe
That there are poems
That don't need to rhyme.

I have so many things to tell her--
That Pooh Bear headbands
Aren't cool forever
(No matter how much cuter they are than Hello Kitty)

And she won't love Kim Possible when she's older,
And that hearts
Break easily--
Even if they're made of gold.

I wanna tell her --
Again and again --
Even if she's heard it a thousand times,
Even if it's a million,
That she should never hurry growing up:
Cause when she eventually does..
She'll keLessons Learned by ~meganapostol
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Be an Angel, Have a Heart"Be an angel,
have a heart."

I have no heart,
not anymore.
It closed,
dried up years ago.

I've been abused,
mentally,
physically,
not only by others,
but by myself as well.

I have the scars to prove it,
inside and out.

I have no heart,
not anymore.
It's closed,
dried up,
so,
What do I do now..?Be an Angel, Have a Heart by ~EchoDreamer1
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Bluebell DreamsI become lost in your dreamy skies,
sleeping beneath the sweet elixir,
bluebells chime their lullabys,
and somewhere inside,
I know they are all lies.

But I can only see fields of blue,
one forgets the distance
between the earth and the heavens,
but it is only an endless delusion.

Like the shifting colors of your eyes,
while drinking honeyed and flower wine,
here within the carnivores mouth
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I Waited for the RainOn the cracked earth
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I waited.

I waited for the rain to fall
To quench my thirst
To heal my wounds

But the rain never fell
From that dark sky
And I?
I waited.

So the years ran by
And still I stood
Over cracks of stone and wood
Under that dark sky

I waited for the rain to fall
But dry brown dust still covered all
And nothing ever came

The world still spun
To the growing sun
And I waited

And the sun engulfed
The empty earth
And finally the rain fell.
The rain of fire burned
And it was good.I Waited for the Rain by ~Akpaley
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How Did You Become A Prison?Language
Words
Talking and writing
Signing
Screaming
Singing and Speech

These are the words that penitrate everyday life
Something we think so little of, and yet they are your greatest ally

Harm or heal
Cure or corrode
Hope or hate
Words are the most powerful of tools

Speak only good and you will be the first to hear it
Speak only bad and you hear that also
More important than others
Words make up who you are

Even those with no words
Always manage to make themselves heard
You can shut yourself off from the world
Blind to beatings
Deaf to destruction
Mute to mayhem
And you will still be able to communicate
Making your own words heard
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How Did You Become A Prison? by *Strudel--Cutie4427
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  • Mood: Triumph
  • Listening to: Should\'ve Known Better - Hinder
  • Reading: Sylvia Plath - The Bell Jar
  • Watching: Iron Man 3 bitches
  • Playing: Guitar :P
  • Eating: ;)
  • Drinking: ;)
So it's been a long while. I haven't written, posted, messaged people.
But I'm better now.
I'm writing, singing, acting. I'm debating again (we won nationals and I got best speaker :P)
I'm trying to interact with more people again
Taking up dating again. Successful to an extent.
I'm feeling better :) Big change from a few months back. And it's only cause of friends - both new and old - constantly pushing me to push forward and push myself on.
So I may look back at times and have some slight grudges, but guess what? I just don't care anymore.
It's a new me : new angel wings, new smiles. I'm so sorry to anybody who's been waiting for my writing. I'll be making my come back soon.
Lemme just wrap up mid-years and we're good to go ;)
To people I've hurt before... To people I've left hanging and abandoned... Please don't hold grudges? It was a bad time, and now things are starting to look up and I can breathe again and we should be going all good pretty soon :)
So, for everything I've done wrong, I apologize. But I'm moving forward now, so if you can't forgive me, I understand.
Let's write, shall we?
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I am currently a student, a singer-songwriter, and an aspiring poet. i play the guitar, am told can sing moderately well and still have some of my weird habits intact.

i enjoy physical reading and writing way more than i ever will enjoy reading an online book because i like how solid and real the book feels in my hands, the musty smell of the pages be they freshly printed and bought or the really old type of pages that are yellowing and threatening to crumble in my fingers

i'd love to meet Sarah Kay + Phil Kaye and i'm still writing the list of things i wanna do before i die.

i appreciate and enjoy all forms of art
but i express myself better with words :)


fun fact about me? hmm... i write awesome poetry when I'm depressed (at least i think it's awesome ) but when I'm happy and in love my brain goes :icontrollfaceplz: and nothing comes out....

no i'm not bipolar or schizporenic
*blackout*
This is Megan's evil clone Ithanaelia Seran
If you wish to see her alive, take my advice
She's mad.
*blackout*
I promise :D


I'm hoping to get a job in the New York or Los Angeles literary scene but i still wanna live here in Singapore and raise a family here.

If a serial killer is reading this, i just wanna say
NO IM NOT THE ONE WHO'S GOING TO DIE BECAUSE YOU ARE YOU HEAR ME YOU STUPID IDIOT?? YOU'RE GOING DOWN WAY BEFORE I DO!!!
that goes for terrorists too :D

I believe in romance, living and moving forward. Fair warning to everyone that I am spontaneous, crazy and erratic. I'm a Libra so I'm airy and flighty and slightly emotional. I apologize if I hurt anyone in advance, but seriously, it's just the way I am.

I'm a debater and I love what I do. I love being 3rd Speaker and I love my team. I love the Literary and Debating Society and I love my Juniors and my best friend :)
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~EchoDreamer1 May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fav. :)
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Mood: Joy ~NomNomBurgerZ Mar 12, 2013
Hey, thank you for the faves ! :)
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~meganapostol Mar 24, 2013  Student Writer
:) no prob
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~HiiroNoUnmei1997 Feb 23, 2013
HIYA :3
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~meganapostol Feb 26, 2013  Student Writer
uh... hi?
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~HiiroNoUnmei1997 Feb 26, 2013
How are you? I haven't talked to you in a while x3
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~meganapostol Feb 26, 2013  Student Writer
dead, dying, fighting. I've been building up who I am. Like an idiot, I went to see his.. I'm crumbling again... so yeah....
How about you? What's been happening?
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~FrannyCassar Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the llama badge! :)
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~meganapostol Feb 26, 2013  Student Writer
no prob
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~fairytailrox98 Dec 5, 2012
Tagged~
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